Yesterday was Logan and Ryder's birthday...it marked 3 years since they came to say hello and goodbye on the same day. I think this year was the first year I was completely at peace with them being gone. In the past I would get so overwhelmed with sadness when I saw a rainbow, a pregnant lady, a mother and her twins walking by....I don't do that anymore. I think of them but it doesn't bring tears to my eyes anymore...Now, I just need to focus on Kainen and Miles. I miss being pregnant SO much and I really would love to get pregnant as soon as possible but as much as I want to have another one I know that now is not the time. I know that I will have a high risk pregnancy and may possibly be on bed rest for most of it and I need Miles to be fully independent...walking and such...before I can think about being pregnant.
*~Logan and Ryder~*
I was thinking of you yesterday. Remembering you coming into this world with one single breath and then drifting off to heaven to watch over us. That day was a sad day for me and Daddy. I've cried a lot since because I was angry that I lost you and I couldn't understand why we couldn't keep you but now realize what a blessing you both are and how lucky I am to have met you, touch you and kiss you. I think about you often and wonder what it would have been like to see you grow up but I know that one day I will and I'll just have to be patient. Thank you for the reminders that you are still there watching over us and waiting. I love you both dearly! Happy Birthday! I will remember you always!
2 comments:
I don't think I've ever seen this picture. What a sweet moment but so...heartbreaking also.
I'm glad it's better for you this year.
Happy Birthday Logan and Ryder!
Thank you for posting this Cheri. And the photo of Logan and Ryder is so precious...until you meet again.
Laurie
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