Gosh, these last three months have gone by so fast! When I had Miles I thought for sure that the time would s..l..o..w..l..y creep by. I thought my life would be at a stand still for months after months. They definitely haven't. I can't believe that it's been three months, I have a three month old! A lot has changed since but man has it flown by. Although, these last couple weeks I've felt it slow down.

Miles has been doing wonderfully. He hasn't had an apnea episode since Jan. 13th...well he's had one or two small ones but nothing serious. I've mentioned that he has to go 5 days without one for him to be able to come home. He has and I think the small episodes he's had aren't significant enough to start those five days over again. Make sense? So we are just waiting for the doctor to say 'okay, he's in the clear, you can bring him home now'.

My original due date was on January 18th which is really weird because that same day they tried taking him off his oxygen and he's been off ever since. They still put him on it during his feedings but he's been doing great! That's another step closer. I think right now my greatest fear of bringing him home is that I'll wake up one night and he's not breathing. I know I can't think like that but as his mother and all he's been through and all he's still going through, how can I not fear the worst? Anyway, so it calms my nerves knowing that he doesn't need that full support. I feel much more comfortable bring him home now.

He's taken a step back to 6 out of 8 feedings instead of 7 out of 8. I think he still needs that break, right now it's too much work for him. He now weighs...are you ready...8 lbs. 8 oz.! He's awake a lot more and for longer which I LOVE. I love that I can sit and stare into his eyes and talk to him and sing to him and learn more about his personality. He's just like Kainen was, hardly cries, very melow, very happy....just goin' with the flow. Not to mention he's got the cheeks that Kainen had...those sweet little cheeks :)


P.S. His MRI went well. It just confirmed that the bleed in his brain is healing the right way. The clotting isn't blocking any natural flow, extra fluid is absorbing in the right places and so forth. Yay!

I know this video isn't the best quality, it's from my cell but it shows him and how he is when he's awake...along with some hiccups.